Opening You Inside of Me

When we love another, part of what we’re after is unification, acceptance, and connection with the self. We want to feel our fullest essence, the core of us that is untouched and unfettered by life in a body; we want to feel that sacred self by way of another’s attention and adoration. We want to feel our soul, its longevity, its total, encompassing, deathless, and seductive permanence. We also want to feel the ageless soul and being of another, but in my belief system, what we really want is ourselves: whole, happy, deserving, trusting, radiant, and fulfilled, which is how we all feel when we are out of bodies and on the Other Side.

We truly do live forever. We never die. Oh, our sweet, hardworking bodies die, but our souls do not. We simply change shape. We merely change structure. So, when we love, we get to feel the “forever” of our own self by way of another person’s being; and, it’s glorious and enchanting.

Some of my "tangle" artwork. :)

Some of my “tangle” artwork. 🙂

There is simply no better feeling in the world than love. We LOVE love. We love how it feels inside of us. We love when we are appreciative, connected, dialed-in, and glowing with pleasure. We love our heart and soul connections with others. Sure, what we do with our bodies is important. Sex is delicious and fun. But, it’s what happens in our spirits while loving another or sexing another that truly entices us. We know that physical is only a part of the entire equation. And, I argue that the spiritual elements have to be there for the love to be truly healthy, beneficial, and complete.

I’ve written about this before, but when I love someone, whether carnal or not, it’s a crazy ride, man. My energy is nuclear. I love as vociferously as I live. I love so hard that it scares people. Not in a grasping, dependent, and unhealthy way, but in an energetic, all-encompassing, vigorous, and extremely intense way. I love deep, hard, and fast. I fall in love quickly and it stays with me. If I love you, get ready for some big emotion and big fun. Get ready to play in a river of feeling because my love is a totally physical and spiritual orgy of fast-moving, strong current. When I love you, you know it. There is no question because I’m erupting energy all over the room. If you form the question, the answer is always “yes”. I’m all in. Love for me is intensely physical and achingly spiritual all at the same time; it takes a big person to handle me.

More of my tangle art.

More of my tangle art.

So, on this idea, I’ve been back to writing poetry recently and wanted to float a few pieces your way. Oh, and I’m not sure if I ever told you guys, but I had a 60-page poetry book published in 1998 (back in the dark ages before I was this happy). 🙂 Anyway, I was a working poet for quite a number of years and was published alot. But, after 15 years, I gave it up, walked away, and literally stopped writing poetry. I was sick of poetry. Sick of myself and my psychology. Sick of the conversation and narcissism and depression. My poetry was largely a convenient therapist from whom I had to walk away, because I was not advancing, just wallowing. Anyway, that’s my poetry back-story.

Hope you like my new poetry. See if you can get the “theme” of all of these poems or the general chord of connection here.

The Day We Met

the moment opened up in front of us
all eyes and breath
no one else felt it
but we did

you did

later, in my dark room
sifting through the words
we spoke and how the
light
poured out of you

and lit me up

I knew everything was going to be
different

and it is

(Note: This poem was first published, in a slightly different form, on Jackie P’s awesome blog: To Breath is to Write.)

**********************

And Then, He Touched Me

my mind spilled, spine curled, and hand tingled
for days
and days and days.
still, even now, it moves through me and
blossoms inside of me,
the warmest warm, the strongest tug
up and down my length
the light crossing in front
then rising inside
like the image of you
filling me up
and rocking the curve of my bones
open.

**********************

Him

Rising
inside of me,
him
my body
aching
holding
the sun
asking
him in
asking
again
the drag of him
through me
the pulse
of him
in
everything

**********************

The Stone of Love

pressing my hands against it
the cool rock pressing back
its slow breath
climbing up my arms
its ridges in my skin;
its language decoded
thinking about how you
first grabbed my wrist
one quick movement
that set the world
on end
opened the sun
inside of me
decoded my language
as I slide across the cool
old rock and lay open
to the sky
the stone now
pressing at my back
entering me there
then, you, swimming up and
laughing as you grab
my wrist (again) and pull me
in on top of you.

(Note: This poem was first published on Jackie P’s awesome blog: To Breath is to Write.)

Feel free to share your thoughts. Open yourselves here with me and get ready for the connection. I’m ready. ❤ I LOVE you, friends. 🙂

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28 thoughts on “Opening You Inside of Me

  1. astraltravler

    Dear Lizzy,
    Thank you for sharing such Beauty. Aahhh how each and every poem Touched Me! Looking forward to reading more poetry from You!
    Love your Soul Sister,
    Anastasia 💛

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    1. BigLizzy Post author

      Hi, Astral-baby!! Thank you so much for stopping by and reading the new poetry, darling. And, your comments are just so, so sweet. I think I need to reconsider giving up poetry for good. hahahaa! Thank you, my love. For everything you do to help others. I love you! 🙂

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      1. astraltravler

        Dearest Lizzy,
        My Soul Sister, I apologize for this late reply. You make my day! I’m Touched by your Heartwarming reply. I personally think You should Not give up on poetry. I look forward to reading more from You!
        All My Love,
        Anastasia 💛

      2. BigLizzy Post author

        Anastasia-sister,
        Awwww..aren’t you sweet for saying this. I’m very glad that I made your day. Sometimes, it’s the littlest things that can make such a difference, eh? I do feel like I could take up poetry again and maybe even get another book published. My first book resulted after 10 years of placing poems in various periodicals and magazines. That book was just a large chapbook, really, not an official “book”. So, maybe I should try to get more of my work out there. Thanks for the encouragement, sweet soul sister. You are in my heart, honey. XOXO

      3. BigLizzy Post author

        Love you, soul-sister, Anastasia. You warm my heart all of the time. I’m the luckiest girl in the world. 🙂

  2. Amy

    Liz, yours is the best contemporary poetry I have read. My goodness. Want more, please. Thank you for this post.

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    1. BigLizzy Post author

      Amy,
      What a totally kind and heart-warming message from you, honey. I adore this! Poetry was my first love as a writer, for sure. Wow, at this rate, I might just have to keep the poems comin’! I’m honored by you and your energy here, sis. Truly. A writer never works alone so long as there is at least one with whom they can connect. Thank you, darling. Warm kisses and hugs to you! ❤

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  3. Pat Cegan

    Your poetry, your writing, your booming energy…just wonderful. I am also a Tangle addict and use them as one of the types of meditations I enjoy. Nice to visit you here as I seldom have time to read other people’s blogs. hugs, pat

    Reply
    1. BigLizzy Post author

      Pat,

      You are simply just the loveliest person, honey. I’m just so glad that you are part of my tribe now and I am part of yours. I glean much inspiration from your blog, too and love visiting you.

      Isn’t tangling the best?!! I also use it to shut my mind down and meditate. I love that you tangle, too. Post some snaps of your artwork, babe. I would love to see them. 🙂

      Big, warm, and loving hugs to you, sis. XOXO

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    1. BigLizzy Post author

      Dan-the-man, Hahahahahahahahaaaa! I am dying laughing over here, Mister. Seriously, this is the hardest I have laughed in 100 years! 🙂 Hugs to you, honey.

      Reply
      1. BigLizzy Post author

        LOL! Oh, hell no. There is a time and a place for laughter, baby. And, that ain’t one of them. 😉 You are ridiculously funny, my dear Dan. I so love when you visit and shine your gorgeous light over here. Sweet hugs to you, honey.

      2. BigLizzy Post author

        Hahahaaa… you know that’s where I live: right smack-dab in the middle of the gutter, baby. I’m a bad-ass biker b*tch after all. Love you, my friend. Thanks for the laughs and the company (in the gutter). 🙂

  4. Jami

    Beautiful poetry! And also such truth in your message. You inspire me to start blogging again…about my own stories of body love/release, releasing the fear of bodily death, and the power of pure love. I’ve had quite some breakthroughs lately, and I start to recognize myself in your words. Thank you!

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    1. BigLizzy Post author

      Jami-babe,

      You truly honor me with your comments and sharing how you are now inspired to explore your own journey with body through your blog. Yay! It’s so, so nice to hear this and to know that you have found impetus to go deeper into your process.

      You became the beacon for this message, honey. In other words, it’s your wonderful asking that brought you what you needed and wanted by way of me and my blog. You are a powerful, vital, and beautiful creator, sweet friend. I simply held the energy beam so you could align with your truth, but this is all for you. I’m excited to read and share in your blog posts.

      All my love to you, sweetie. ❤

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    1. BigLizzy Post author

      Nomzi, Thank you so very much, darling friend! I feel the same way about your wonderful writing. You have the gift, too! We are two creative beings, aren’t we?! Love you, honey. Thanks for stopping by! XOXO

      Reply
      1. BigLizzy Post author

        Eeeeyaiyayayaya!!! (This, my best attempt at yelling exuberantly!). I love you, Nomzi. Come visit. I need to look into your eyes, sis. XOXO

      2. BigLizzy Post author

        Dany! Thank you so much for the kind comments on my art, new friend. I appreciate your visit and energy very much. : )

  5. mariner2mother

    Wow. Just wow. I need a cold shower.

    LOVE your artwork! You are so talented in so many ways. So glad we stumbled across each other and clicked. Love you Chick!!

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    1. BigLizzy Post author

      Susan-babe, Thank you so much for the funny comment and delightful image. Hahahahaha! I need cold shower now. LOL! I have a strong creative streak for sure. Tangling is fun because it’s nearly impossible to mess them up and it frees my inner “judge”. I can tell myself that I’m “just doodling” and playing with it. It’s such a cool form of meditation. Love you, too, chicky-poo. So much! XOXO

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